Until Then….

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While my year has been pretty crazy, I’ve been able to live vicariously a bit through my siblings. My sister has been blessed to have a job that she loves that also allows her to travel everywhere. It seems like each month she is heading somewhere new. My brother was also given the opportunity to travel as well. He isn’t as enthused about it as she, but he’s able to experience life in a spontaneous way as well.

I adore my siblings.. more than they will ever know. I’m so excited for them and  grateful that they choose to share their adventures with me. It is hard as we get older to be around each other during the holidays. We still hold hope to one day all be under the same roof again at Christmas… Until then, FaceTime it is.

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Adalynne
Head: Catwa Catya Head
Body – Maitreya Lara 4.1
Skin: Glam Affair Catwa Cherry Applier and Maitreya Body Applier 6
Shape: My own/Not for Sale
Hair: Truth Livia

{Clothes and Accessories}
Jewelry: Earthstones All My love Bridal
Outfit: Vinyl Spice Holiday Dress @ Access Event

{Set Design}
Foxcity Old Station Photo Booth @ Kustom9

Hive Fir Trees

{Pose}
Foxcity  Cold Outside 5M @ Kustom9

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What I’ve Missed Most

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So Yesterday, I did something that I very rarely do. I dug down deep and pulled out thoughts and feelings that I knew if I did not,  I would wade through them on the daily. It is good to just be able to sit and write things. My mom has given me multiple journals throughout the years and always told me, Even if it’s just a few words, Write something. But the thing about journals for me is, they become more like something you are forced to do everyday. You skip one day .. okay no problem, then you skip two .. then it becomes a week. They say it takes three weeks  of repetition and if not.. the habit never forms.

One thing I feel is missing from that is the passion and determination to actually get down those thoughts and feelings. Without that, what is the point in it.. what is the point in doing anything for that matter if the passion isn’t there. Same goes for my blogging. With every break, Or at least blogging break, I have taken from SL, I’m thoroughly missed blogging. I’ve missed taking a creation and showing it in the best way I possibly can. I miss taking that picture and then applying  a song, quote,  or poem to it. But most of all, Is the one thing those closest to me miss as well: I miss my stories.

I miss writing about what is going on in my little world. I miss throwing every thought and feeling into words along aside a picture. I miss being vulnerable. When I first started blogging this is what I would do…. I feel like somewhere along the way I was captured in the mode of “Just get this post out.” Saying to myself each time,  I’ll write in the next one. Over the past few weeks, I’m come to realize I can’t do that to myself anymore. I’ve dropped a mighty handful of incredible creators. Even some that were serious blogging goals for me… Simply because it isn’t fair to myself or them, to keep trying to put out something I’m not absolutely proud of.

So in doing of all that, I’ve decided to come back to why I started blogging in the first place. I am determined to make myself write again.. I want to feel again. I want to throw myself into every post not only in the photo but also in writing too. In two short days, My blog will be three years old. Thank you to all of you that have followed my journey along that way. I hope you continue to stick around. There will be more stories, quotes, poem, and most definitely songs…..

But the one liners, They’ve got to go.

Keep Smiling Y’all.

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Adalynne
Head: Catwa Catya Head
Body – Maitreya Lara 4.1
Skin: Glam Affair Catwa Cherry Applier and Maitreya Body Applier 6
Shape: My own/Not for Sale
Hair: Truth Mitzi

{Clothes and Accessories}
Jewelry: Earthstones All My love Bridal
Outfit: Dead Dollz Noelle Sweater and Skirt @ FaMESHed (SOLD SEPARATELY)

{Set Design}
Minimal SOHO Building @ Collabor88

Hive Holiday Garland Collection @ Uber

Jian Christmas Tree 2017

{Pose}
Foxcity  Chill 6M

 

I’ll Fight

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~When you feel you’re taking all that you can take
And you’re sure you’re never gonna catch a break
And the tears are rivers running down your face, yeah
When your faith is low and you’ve got no strength left
When you think you’ve gone as far as you can get
And you’re too run down to take another step~

~Oh I will take up the struggle
Oh I know it’s a fight~

This woman, through thick and thin, as been there. She listens, she advises, shes the one that has fought and stood by me through a lot this year. To think, this is the woman that is suppose to be my enemy.. the one who is suppose to despise me… No.. She’s the exact opposite and I’m grateful for love, understanding and forgiving hearts.. Thank you, Ryanna. Thank you for fighting not only for me, but with me.

~So I’ll fight, fight that war for you
I’ll fight, stand and defend you
Take your side, that’s what I’m here to do
I’ll be there to be strong
Oh I’ll keep on, keep on the fight~

I’ll fight ~ Jennifer Hudson

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Adalynne
Head: Catwa Catya Head
Body – Maitreya Lara 4.1
Skin: Glam Affair Catwa Cherry Applier and Maitreya Body Applier 6
Shape: My own/Not for Sale
Hair: Truth  Aislin

{Clothes and Accessories}
Jewelry: Earthstones All My love Bridal
Dress: Just because Holly Dress @ Access
Shoes: Reign Tana Boots and socks

Ryanna: Thank you for posing with me… Check out her work here!
Top: Aleutia Mary Sweater @ Collabor88
Jeans: Blueberry – DWL Classic – Sky
Hair: Stealthic – Ivy

{Set Design}
Minimal SOHO Building @ Collabor88

{Pose}
 Luanes World BENTO Poses – There for you

Breathe in and Breathe out……Goodbye 2018

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Inhale deep…… exhale… long and slow.

~Oh child when you are weary Weary deep down in your soul~

Remember a few years back when everyone was ready for the year to end? We lost a lot of amazing, talented, and good people that year. I’ll admit I was ready for it to be over too, but not as much I am ready to say goodbye to 2018.

~Hear my voice rolling like a river I won’t ever leave you alone No no no~

January Rushed in and flooded out so quickly that looking back now, I wonder where it went. February arrived and that is when my world came crashing for the first time… I lost one of the most important men in my life. A man, that took me in as his own, encouraging and helping me find my way. A man, that helped push me through college. A man, that taught me more about life than I cared to know at the time. This man was not only my father in law but my second Dad. My Dad for 13 years of my life just gone. Gone way to soon. It wasn’t easy and It never will be.

~Ain’t no chain gonna hold you down Ain’t no grave gonna hold you now~

Just I was getting to where I thought I could grieve and begin to process and move on, My precious Mom was told… “I’m sorry there is nothing I can do for you. You need to see a specialist because you could have cancer.” That month was waiting for one of the longest months of my life up to that point. If losing my father in law wasn’t enough, here I could be losing my mom… My first best friend in life. Finally that day in March came around and it was all okay. It was just a super crazy infection.. one week of meds and all clear. I could breathe again…

~Yesterday done came and gone Ain’t it time to bury them bones ~

March… April… May…. So many people with the wonderful huge announcements. I’m happy for them. They are family.. They deserve this. But it lingers… Why? Why can’t I be doing those same announcements? I’ve done everything right… Why can’t I just be able to feel that overwhelming, uncontrollable joy? I want to hear that first cry. I want to count all ten fingers and all ten toes. Am I just “Too old” …. *Rolls eyes and sighs*… It will happen, all in time.

~ Ain’t no chain gonna hold you down Ain’t no grave gonna hold you now~

June. It’s the middle of the year. Things are gonna be okay.. Halfway mark. I got this. Like Elsa, “Conseal… don’t feel. Don’t let it show” Be strong. Keep pushing forward. There are some changes happening.. these are good changes right? yeah.. It’s gonna be okay. Just keep going.

~Yesterday done came and gone Ain’t it time to bury them bones~

July, August, September….. More big announcements and plans to be made. I’m excited for them. Worrisome.. but who wouldn’t worry about them. They are young.. So young. Brand new couple starting life, living on love. They can do this though! “Just have one… it’s one shot.” what? I haven’t even had that first cigarette in months.. I’ve avoided drinks with friends.. I can’t… wait, you know what.. I can. It will happen when it’s supposed to right.

~Oh child when you’re in darkness Them devils circling around~

October…. What is going on? 3 days… really…. not 5/6….something is wrong with me. I think I should be talking to the “professionals” now. something isn’t right? Maybe it’s just be “Getting old”…. Ugh.. *One week passes* … I think just for shits and giggles…. Negative…. *Sighs*… okay.. No big deal… It’s coming. It’s gonna be okay. Stay strong.

~Don’t you go thinking it’s hopeless Takes some getting lost to be found ohhh~

November….. Dammit! Why do things happen at the most unexpected time? I need my distraction! No telling how long it will take…. Election day… damn… okay.. Let me go give my two cents for this… but first…. Wait.. what day is it.. I’m 5 days….Positive. ♥ My world shifted… I know what I’ll be doing after my vote.

~Ain’t no chain gonna hold you down Ain’t no grave gonna hold you now~

Doctor comes in….. “Well, It is positive.. this is a good thing right?” I still don’t believe it.. “Yes! It is!” It happened.. it’s here… Call him, don’t text it.. Yes thank you ♥ .. I’m so glad you are here to keep me grounded knowing I would be a head full of thoughts. I love you. Thank you. I called…. Excitement slowly grows over the next few weeks.

~Yesterday done came and gone Ain’t it time to bury them bones~

Thanksgiving….. what is happening.. oh this is a normal response.. no big deal… I have an appt next week. I’ll mention it.. Things are gonna be fine. …… 5 days days… It’s still here and … no….. not this too.. I’m calling them. ….. longest hour of my life… I’m in the waiting room…

~Ain’t no chain gonna hold you down Ain’t no grave gonna hold you now~

There is nothing….. in there… I’m 7 weeks… why is it only 5 weeks measuring….. what is this called? I’ve been to school… I should know this stuff.. the doctor is amazing but everything sounds like Charlie brown right now. Pay attention… listen, catch the key words. it’s gonna be okay. “I’m gonna keep some Hope, but this doesn’t look promising”

~Yesterday done came and gone Ain’t it time to bury them bones~

5 days later….. it happened today… I’m okay, But why can’t have that “Closure” others have gotten. Stay logical…. You are strong.. You can handle this. everything has a rhyme and reason. Tell the doctor.. yes.. I probably should….”I’m sorry you went through this.. Keep me posted.”

~Take me down to the river Wash me clean in the water Take me down to the river Wash me clean in the water~

December…. 2 week wait… Finally it is here.. “You are okay and clear. No surgery… You seem to be handling this extremely well.” “I have my moments… but my support system is amazing”

I will never forget…… I will carry  you with me forever. Thank you for teaching me things I didn’t know I needed to learn. Thank you for showing me how strong i can be and how strong I am. I’ll get to meet you one day, I have no doubts. Have fun with your Papa…. he needed you more. Go Find your Nana, Popaw, Mimaw… Go find Eric, Go find Emily, run and play with your cousin.. and when you’re through with your adventures…. My heart will be always be your home. I love you…. My first Angel.

Inhale deeper……. exhale slow…. smoke circles……

~Take me down to the river Wash me clean in the water Take me down to the river Wash me clean in the water.~

Bones ~ Garrison Starr  https://youtu.be/1CFWaWBX3ek

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Adalynne
Head: Catwa Catya Head
Body – Maitreya Lara 4.1
Skin: Glam Affair Catwa Cherry Applier and Maitreya Body Applier 6
Shape: My own/Not for Sale
Hair: Truth Beatrix

{Clothes and Accessories}
Jewelry: Earthstones All My love Bridal
Dress: ISON  turtleneck Sidelaced Dress @ Collabor88
Shoes: Reign Tana Boots and socks

{Set Design}
Minimal SOHO Building @ Collabor88

{Pose}
Foxcity City Light 6

What’s This?

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What’s this? What’s this?
There’s color everywhere
What’s this?
There’s white things in the air
What’s this?

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Adalynne
Head: Catwa Catya Head
Body – Maitreya Lara 4.1
Skin: Glam Affair Catwa Cherry Applier and Maitreya Body Applier 6
Shape: My own/Not for Sale
Hair: Truth Kare

{Clothes and Accessories}
Jewelry: Earthstones All My love Bridal
Outfit: Blueberry Reignberry Cardigans and shorts
Shoes: Reign Tana Boots and socks

{Set Design}
Mutresse Funky Reindeers curious @ The Arcade
Hive Fir Tree @ MAINSTORE

{Pose}
Foxcity Ground sits vol 2-7

Good Vibes Only

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Good Vibes only….. Please and thank you.

Lets just say there are some times I’m incredibly thankful the world doesn’t know everything that goes on behind closed doors. I’m blessed with my small handful of friends that I can disclose anything too. The ones that only put out the good vibes, but also kick your ass when needed too. Thank you for everything. ♥

Keep smiling y’all.

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Adalynne
Head: Catwa Catya Head
Body – Maitreya Lara 4.1
Skin: Glam Affair Catwa Cherry Applier and Maitreya Body Applier 6
Shape: My own/Not for Sale
Hair: Mina Sira

{Clothes and Accessories}
Jewelry: Earthstones All My love Bridal
Top: Just Because Pricilla Top @ FaMESHed
Pants: Just Because Vanessa Pants
Shoes: DRD All Weather Woolies @ FaMESHed

{Set Design}
Foxcity Cozy Bedroom (Mono) @ Collabor88
Jian Snowday St.Bernards 11. Snowsuit Wanderer @ The Epiphany

{Pose}
Foxcity  Stay in bed 6 @ Collabor88

 

Glitz, Glam and Desserts

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Never enough sparkle at Christmas time.. not to mention all the cakes and goodies too 😉

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Adalynne
Head: Catwa Catya Head
Body – Maitreya Lara 4.1
Skin: Glam Affair Catwa Cherry Applier and Maitreya Body Applier 6
Shape: My own/Not for Sale
Hair: Truth Honeyana

{Clothes and Accessories}
Jewelry: Earthstones All My love Bridal
Dahlia Holiday Glam Necklace Rare, and emerald earrings @ The Epiphany
Top: Just Because Pricilla Top @ FaMESHed
Skirt: Just Because Roberta Skirt @ FaMESHed

{Set Design}
Dahlia Holiday Glam (Antler Table Arrangement, cake – brulee, Blue Baubles, Chocolates – Mousse, Antipasto Marble Platter, Cavier, Cocktail Tray – Berry, Purse – greem, Cocktail – Berry)  @ The Epiphany
Jian Poinsettia Garland  @ FaMESHed
Hive Holiday Bow @ Uber

{Pose}
Foxcity Sits Volume 3-6

Cozy Movie Night

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Apple Fall Merry Kitchmas Ornaments (Toadstool, Cardinal, Saint nick, pickle, Teal Pinecone, pink pinecone, squirrel, and Exclusive ornaments (Pickle, Toadstool and Pinecone)) @ Epiphany

Dust Bunny Season Of Giving (Macaroons&Roses, Bag of coal, Owl Plushie, Peppermint treats, Hand knitted blankets (Navy and white), DIY Hot Cocca, Silk Pajamas (Pink and White), and cookie box @ Epiphany

Jian Christmas Tree Bare

Merak Holiday Spirit Gacha (Cozy Fireplace, Fireplace Screen, Cozy pillows A, Winter pillows B, Holiday Socks(Presents), Hot chocolate and Christmas Ladder) @ The Arcade

Mudhoney Olwen Movie night ( Blanket, drink tray, laptop, movies and popcorn) ~ Builder’s Box

Trompe Loeil 2018 Advent Calendar (Farmhouse Rustic Tree, Let in snow text box, Native Star, Wall Sled With Bells, & winter lantern) @ The Arcade

Vespertine Gift boxes, (Pom snow, natural, green, smaller pompom box/multi)